Wednesday, March 26, 2008
ok the novelty of being able to blog almost every other day is seriously beginning to wear off. i'm sick of blogging. yet what am i doing now? the irony of it all.
i'm seriously thinking of borrowing gary's portable dvd player and watch movies during work hours. part of me think it's going overboard but the other part of me thinks that they have already seen me do everything from disappearing for 2 hours plus to sewing to reading they won't care what i do next. argh dilemma. someone please tell me what else i can do to make time pass faster that doesn't involve the computer or reading.
6 more weeks of work. and i officially hate aig. if i ever have to get insurance it definitely will not be from them.
i miss my cousin, my budget shopping buddy. i miss my nephews kyan and kaeden, even though i just saw kaeden on saturday. i miss council, pre OII days.
i rmb on saturday my cousin ion wanted to play hide and seek but the rest of us were too lazy to do so. he's like 6 while the rest of us are at least 13. so yes the age gap is there. somehow growing up robs you of finding satisfaction in the simple pleasures of life, like playing simple kid games. i think it'll really suck to grow up with no siblings and cousins to play with and i really thank God for giving me 2 sisters and all my cousins.
even though growing up sometimes wasn't easy, it was still a fantastic experience. my sisters were brats who pissed the hell out of me till they hit their teens and began to mature. it was tough watching my boy cousins always getting scolded and beaten for just being kids (aren't all kids, especially boys, just plain playful and mischievous?) but they matured into hardworking quieter but still playful boys. and i miss the saturdays of yesterday where we would play games like freeze tag and hide and seek.
maybe that's why i love kids so much, cos they seem to have the best life compared to other age groups. no worries, no stress, no heartbreaks. i keep telling my sisters to really enjoy themselves now cos growing up really sucks.
i wish i was a kid again. just for a day even.
that day my cousins and i were saying we should all have kids at the same time so our kids can play and grow up together. and i fully agree. haha.
was talking to someone online yesterday night, not someone i'm particularly close to, but there was once when we were. or at least i thought so. and i realised how much i miss him. but a stupid break up resulted in a lost of friendship.
functions gathering this saturday to spend what's left of functions fund. hope more people can make it i'm tired of trying to gather everyone already. this is like what my fourth attempt? yeah. no more if this saturday doesn't fall through i'm going to mail them back their cash i don't care if it gets lost in the mail cos they obviously don't care enough to cooperate with me. why was i made functions treasurer.
sometimes, if not all the time, i'm disappointed that you don't wanna go.
everyone should be serious though. (:
went shopping with bf on sunday cos i really wanted a new wadrobe (i feel like i've been wearing the same clothes for the last decade or so) and cos most of my bottoms don't fit me well anymore (when i walk down the stairs in my jeans i have to hold it up otherwise i'll just trip over them, it's so unglam). i stepped into vivo with the mindset of getting at least a bottom and 2 tops (maybe a bag and a pair of shoes as well) and spending some of my hard earned cash but guess what i went home with? absolutely nothing. i just couldn't find anything i liked, or the clothes just didn't fit me (like S is too small and M is too big that kinda thing), or they ran out of stock (@#?!#!! i was pretty depressed when they ran out of the white shorts i liked so much from mango).
maybe it's a sign that i should lose all the weight i wanna lose before buying clothes otherwise they won't fit me again like 2 months down the road. or maybe i'll grow back to my previous size and fit into whatever i have now (gosh i seriously hope not haha).
anw decided that if i wanna lose weight while working, it's best to get a job where you have to stand the entire day, like waitressing! haha ok lazy me doesn't wanna exercise. which i really have to but i can't seem to find the time to do so on a regular basis (ok maybe i'm just making excuses).
sitting on your bum at a desk all day will only make you fat i think. i should start running after work. hope i'll have the motivation to do so. haha. i should stick a photo of nicole scherzinger on my wall so i'll be pressurised to run and get into shape. haha.
speaking of motivation, my sister was asking me what was my motivation for studying last year. looking back, the main factor was most probably my class studying so hard that motivated me to study hard as well, more than the fact that i wanted to do well. don't get me wrong i did very much want to do well but my class definitely gave me that extra (important) shove. gary pushing me to study hard as well, and that wallpaper that eileen had and the rest of us made her send it to us definitely helped. i put it as my screensaver and it says "You should be studying". it's pretty effective for me, like when you start slacking and you use your phone and suddenly that screensaver pops up, it really makes you feel guilty for digressing from studying. haha. so yeah i told her to put that as her screensaver too.
i found out something over the weekend that surprised me. maybe going through heartbreaks helps us understand each other more and be able to provide more of a comfort/support? it's so weird to hear someone else pour out the same sentiments that you had previously and you can so understand what she's going through! the hurt, the confusion, the dilemma. but what if the outcomes are different. then it gets sucky cos it makes you sorta doubt yourself. which is a bad thing cos for the longest time i've been so sure of myself. or God's plans really. but now it's like... erm... i'm not sure.
its worse when it seems like you're avoiding the subject. and i don't know how to raise it up again.
anw i still wanna get fired from my job. but slacking/ponning/being late doesn't work. and i can't exactly do smth drastic like burn the files. oh well. it's getting increasingly irritating being blamed for not knowing where those freaking files are. well the stupid system says they're in the warehouse is it my fault that they can't freaking find it? and if it's not there will me reminding and pestering them really make the files magically appear?
seriously why can't they just find the files themselves? i think laziness created this job opening for me. and sometimes i really hate them for it! it's like if people weren't so lazy i wouldn't get stuck with this sucky job. argh.
it's still a lousy week i think, i'm grieving about my job all over again. gosh i'm such a whiner. what makes it lousier is the fact that i've been sneezing for the last 2 days. and i have this sore-like thing on the roof of my mouth (maybe it's an ulcer) which freaking hurts and makes eating hard. especiallt when the food's hard, like that guava i had yesterday. argh i hope i'm not falling sick. but then again part of me hopes that i'll fall ill so i can not go to work.
what makes this lousiest is the fact the the office is freaking freezing.
i'm going to attempt to get to great world city later to get my pay. hope i don't get lost. haha. at least i get to be away from the office for about 2 hours.
ok the novelty of being able to blog almost every other day is seriously beginning to wear off. i'm sick of blogging. yet what am i doing now? the irony of it all.
i'm seriously thinking of borrowing gary's portable dvd player and watch movies during work hours. part of me think it's going overboard but the other part of me thinks that they have already seen me do everything from disappearing for 2 hours plus to sewing to reading they won't care what i do next. argh dilemma. someone please tell me what else i can do to make time pass faster that doesn't involve the computer or reading.
6 more weeks of work. and i officially hate aig. if i ever have to get insurance it definitely will not be from them.
i miss my cousin, my budget shopping buddy. i miss my nephews kyan and kaeden, even though i just saw kaeden on saturday. i miss council, pre OII days.
i rmb on saturday my cousin ion wanted to play hide and seek but the rest of us were too lazy to do so. he's like 6 while the rest of us are at least 13. so yes the age gap is there. somehow growing up robs you of finding satisfaction in the simple pleasures of life, like playing simple kid games. i think it'll really suck to grow up with no siblings and cousins to play with and i really thank God for giving me 2 sisters and all my cousins.
even though growing up sometimes wasn't easy, it was still a fantastic experience. my sisters were brats who pissed the hell out of me till they hit their teens and began to mature. it was tough watching my boy cousins always getting scolded and beaten for just being kids (aren't all kids, especially boys, just plain playful and mischievous?) but they matured into hardworking quieter but still playful boys. and i miss the saturdays of yesterday where we would play games like freeze tag and hide and seek.
maybe that's why i love kids so much, cos they seem to have the best life compared to other age groups. no worries, no stress, no heartbreaks. i keep telling my sisters to really enjoy themselves now cos growing up really sucks.
i wish i was a kid again. just for a day even.
that day my cousins and i were saying we should all have kids at the same time so our kids can play and grow up together. and i fully agree. haha.
was talking to someone online yesterday night, not someone i'm particularly close to, but there was once when we were. or at least i thought so. and i realised how much i miss him. but a stupid break up resulted in a lost of friendship.
functions gathering this saturday to spend what's left of functions fund. hope more people can make it i'm tired of trying to gather everyone already. this is like what my fourth attempt? yeah. no more if this saturday doesn't fall through i'm going to mail them back their cash i don't care if it gets lost in the mail cos they obviously don't care enough to cooperate with me. why was i made functions treasurer.
sometimes, if not all the time, i'm disappointed that you don't wanna go.
everyone should be serious though. (:
watchin u;
at 10:57 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
went shopping with bf on sunday cos i really wanted a new wadrobe (i feel like i've been wearing the same clothes for the last decade or so) and cos most of my bottoms don't fit me well anymore (when i walk down the stairs in my jeans i have to hold it up otherwise i'll just trip over them, it's so unglam). i stepped into vivo with the mindset of getting at least a bottom and 2 tops (maybe a bag and a pair of shoes as well) and spending some of my hard earned cash but guess what i went home with? absolutely nothing. i just couldn't find anything i liked, or the clothes just didn't fit me (like S is too small and M is too big that kinda thing), or they ran out of stock (@#?!#!! i was pretty depressed when they ran out of the white shorts i liked so much from mango).
maybe it's a sign that i should lose all the weight i wanna lose before buying clothes otherwise they won't fit me again like 2 months down the road. or maybe i'll grow back to my previous size and fit into whatever i have now (gosh i seriously hope not haha).
anw decided that if i wanna lose weight while working, it's best to get a job where you have to stand the entire day, like waitressing! haha ok lazy me doesn't wanna exercise. which i really have to but i can't seem to find the time to do so on a regular basis (ok maybe i'm just making excuses).
sitting on your bum at a desk all day will only make you fat i think. i should start running after work. hope i'll have the motivation to do so. haha. i should stick a photo of nicole scherzinger on my wall so i'll be pressurised to run and get into shape. haha.
speaking of motivation, my sister was asking me what was my motivation for studying last year. looking back, the main factor was most probably my class studying so hard that motivated me to study hard as well, more than the fact that i wanted to do well. don't get me wrong i did very much want to do well but my class definitely gave me that extra (important) shove. gary pushing me to study hard as well, and that wallpaper that eileen had and the rest of us made her send it to us definitely helped. i put it as my screensaver and it says "You should be studying". it's pretty effective for me, like when you start slacking and you use your phone and suddenly that screensaver pops up, it really makes you feel guilty for digressing from studying. haha. so yeah i told her to put that as her screensaver too.
i found out something over the weekend that surprised me. maybe going through heartbreaks helps us understand each other more and be able to provide more of a comfort/support? it's so weird to hear someone else pour out the same sentiments that you had previously and you can so understand what she's going through! the hurt, the confusion, the dilemma. but what if the outcomes are different. then it gets sucky cos it makes you sorta doubt yourself. which is a bad thing cos for the longest time i've been so sure of myself. or God's plans really. but now it's like... erm... i'm not sure.
its worse when it seems like you're avoiding the subject. and i don't know how to raise it up again.
anw i still wanna get fired from my job. but slacking/ponning/being late doesn't work. and i can't exactly do smth drastic like burn the files. oh well. it's getting increasingly irritating being blamed for not knowing where those freaking files are. well the stupid system says they're in the warehouse is it my fault that they can't freaking find it? and if it's not there will me reminding and pestering them really make the files magically appear?
seriously why can't they just find the files themselves? i think laziness created this job opening for me. and sometimes i really hate them for it! it's like if people weren't so lazy i wouldn't get stuck with this sucky job. argh.
it's still a lousy week i think, i'm grieving about my job all over again. gosh i'm such a whiner. what makes it lousier is the fact that i've been sneezing for the last 2 days. and i have this sore-like thing on the roof of my mouth (maybe it's an ulcer) which freaking hurts and makes eating hard. especiallt when the food's hard, like that guava i had yesterday. argh i hope i'm not falling sick. but then again part of me hopes that i'll fall ill so i can not go to work.
what makes this lousiest is the fact the the office is freaking freezing.
i'm going to attempt to get to great world city later to get my pay. hope i don't get lost. haha. at least i get to be away from the office for about 2 hours.
watchin u;
at 7:29 PM